Unraveling the Feelings

To that guy worth thinking:

      I never imagined to meet a guy like you. Maybe it's not too late but I'm so unsure. You impressed me with your personality. I never thought that i would be impress and adore it once more. Yet, this clinging feeling is so clingy. It's sweet and melancholic like that of Mozart's or Chopin's music. It's relaxing and relentlessly adorable. I can't get enough of the feeling. i don't know if you feel the same way like I do. Like so many infatuations I had, i hope this will work out just this time around. What should I say? Can't explain why I miss to see you badly, chat with you or text you. You are just hard to leave. At first, I thought I'm finding a "bad ass" guy, having qualities that I don't possess or will never be. Yet you made me realize that I still and will like a guy with the same personality as you. I'm having this crazy and weird what if's in mind. What if you're my soul mate? What if you are that 1 in a billion in the populace that I'll be marrying sooner? can't tell that but can't get away with that feeling too. Maybe, you are that missing x in my math equation. you are the answer in all my uncertain questions. Would I just thank GOD that I met you and had this little friendship? probably, YES! Who would have thought I'll going to  meet and know a little story of your existence. I guess I just know you for a week more. when we first talked, i don't even know you and hell, I acted weird and guess rude. IDK! Absolutely, I found something common in you. You're smart (deadly!) who is practicing martyrdom or masochism like I do. So we can build a dome together and spend time together. (<--This is CHILL!) I don't want to interfere with your life's priorities and goals. even when I love it, when I'm in pain, guess, I still have my limits and I'm hesitating to hear this feeling. I know it will take me nowhere. But still I want you to take me somewhere with you. I don't have any idea of your IDEAL future girl yet I'm hoping and wishing to be that girl. i'm serious! You awaken the loss hope in me. You are giving me reasons to believe myself when I don't. If ever I can ask you a question, probably, I'll ask you if ever you are thinking about me in a different way. yes, the different  way. it's unusual I think for me to ask you that. There's a 50% probability that I'm liking you more than my past crush.(okay, weird!) I'll just pray for your happiness and love life. May you find peace of mind and I'm just here if you want to share something. Keep on! :) 

                                                                          Take me somewhere far,
                                                                                       Anne xx

unfathomable emotions...

Saturday, September 13, 2014 (10:33pm)           
             It’s sad and happy all at once. That feeling that haunts you for about a year and now, you’ve conquered that notion--BIG TIME! I’ve been asking myself what I wanted though there’s no answer, just wayward thoughts which I don’t even know if essential. Okay, that’s weird. Know what, happenstance, when we bump to each other the thing is that I really don’t care, I mean a lot. Though I was hurt previously because maybe, he really matters like so much. Okay, now I’m glad and enthusiastically happy ( am I?) to say that he was now forgotten and that yeah, he matters but not that much. Maybe, somewhere somewhat I’ve fallen for that guy whom I don’t even sure if worth thinking for. (am I even sure or just kidding?) he even don’t give a damn about me or even just other people of course, I know that what matters for him was his bestfriend which didn’t seem to care for him. So, guess im just good for nothing and I cant even do a thing about it. Maybe, I should leave it the way I want it. Untold, maybe written but will never be imprinted yet even remember. That’s what suited for him. To answer he’s query, what if the world is a product of your imagination would you live in it/ the answer is just stupid like the question, of course I won’t because he was one of it and to be honest, he was the main character to be decided if he would live or just die. Okay, that’s pretty brutal yet I guess that;s the product of my brutality.                                                                                                                            ALWAYS & FOREVER,                                                                     julie anne